Queen of Little Rocks

I have a new title now. Over the past few years a few people have called me on the audacity that I have had to title myself Queen of the Word. It's been a good email address, although many people have felt that my ego extended to claim the whole world. It had not. Now my ego only extends to little rocks.

I got a lecture today from my wise man. He still wants me to listen at some point, but he may have begun to feel that it is a vain hope. Reading over my past few blogs, it is obvious that I am stressed. I know there are ways to relieve the stress, but I don't seem to be good at using those in order to actually get rid of the stress in my life.

The analogy that my new title refers to is the one of big rocks and little rocks. Life is like a jar. You can fill it up with the little rocks, the little things in life, but then there is no room for the big rocks, the important things. Some of the big rocks are family, friends, your health, your sanity. The little ones are stressing about an assignment that is due the next day, making the house look perfect for guests, shopping for new clothes.

The little rocks have begun to fill up my life and I will be the first to admit that. I know where the big rocks are and I understand why they are important. It's just that some where between everything some of them have gone missing and little rocks have fallen in to take their place. No matter how much I attempt to shovel them out, more keep falling in on me.

During the summer, life is simpler. Balance is restored. It is the little things that become the big things and rightly so. A smile in the morning, time to go out for coffee, dancing in the kitchen, praying together. All the things that don't happen during the year. The things that I take the time for and the things that make me happy. I need to learn the art of bringing my summer self along with my school self. I haven't quite reached there yet as many people seem to delight in reminding me, but I am trying. And one day I will get it right. I promise.

I forgot one of the phrases that was supposed to be a part of this blog. The tyranny of the urgent. Not everything has to be done yesterday, or even today. It is OK to leave things until tomorrow. In case my sister is reading this, that does not mean ten page essays or papers that are more than 10% of your mark. Just about anything else though is fine. So I'm doing my best to overthrow the tyranny of my life. Another ongoing project and goal. We'll see how it goes.