As I Am

Listening to music while driving for hours with my family tends to lead to my hearing some very good lyrics that I don't always hear. One of the lines that struck me that most was this. "Will you take me as I am, someone so much less than perfect?" It's a question that seems to be coming up in my own life a lot right now.

I've just begun a new relationship. There are so many things that I don't know about him, and there are many things that he doesn't know about me. Right now, that doesn't matter though. He is more than aware that I am not perfect, not for the least reason being that he reads my blog and knows what I what about. For some reason, that I can't quite figure out yet, he hasn't walked away. He knows that I am not perfect. He knows that I am far from perfect and so do I. He accepts me all the same.

The line in the song is not directed to any person though. It is directed to God. And that makes the whole statement make even more sense. It doesn't matter how perfect we are. It matters even more how perfect we are not. We are not perfect on any level. We make mistakes every day. We hurt each other, whether we mean to or not. It's hard to come to someone who is perfect and only have that to offer. A broken life and a beaten heart. To be able to bring only that which is full of imperfections when what we approach is so full of life and light and beauty that we can't bear to look at it.

I continue to come with my question, to those around me certainly and those above. Those around me, even though I know that they come to me with the same amount of brokenness and imperfection if different ways than mine. I know that in order to be loved and accepted in the ways that I am seeking I have to have an open heart to accept and love those who come forward in ways that are also so much less than perfect. There are no guarantees when I ask this question to those around me. Some of them will accept me and some of them won't. I come with my question to the one who I know will not push me aside because I am not perfect. That is the one place where I know my question will be answered with open arms and a place for me to stay. Regardless of how many people don't answer my question in the way that I want, I can come to the one who will be waiting for me, not to ask the question, but to simply come into His presence and enjoy the light.