Click!

I want to say that I am a romantic much of the time. I have been told that I am a hopeless romantic at some points, and others as a cynical romantic. I'm somewhere in between at all points in my life, but mostly closer to the cynical side of things. So it may surprise quite a few people when I can now say that I know what it means to just "click" with someone. Not only have I felt it, but I think I may have heard it.

In the past two months, I have returned to the place that I love more than most other places and have had my heart stolen in so many ways. Despite the fact that I am not staying here for the year, all the places of my life seem to be falling into place with a resounding click! I know what I'm doing next year and I know where I'm going after I finish school. I'm taking a language course next year, which may not surprise some people, which will allow me to travel and live in the country I want to when I am done my degree. All the things in my life that I wasn't looking at, or looking forward to, are coming together in a way that I want them to.

I live with someone who had something similar happen in his life. Everything fell into place for his life to continue in the way that he had planned. And then something changed. He made the decision to walk away from the things that are clicking. Everything clicked in a very different way when he made a different choice. Still good, and I'm glad that he'll be closer for another year.

I don't know if I'll be able to walk away from the clicking in my life. As much as it scares me, I kind of like it. I like the fact that I can see the next few years of my life planned out. I like the fact that for the first time in my life that doesn't terrify me. I don't feel like running away and I don't feel like changing everything.

How many people would change everything when their life is going smoothly? Would you be willing to change your life when it's not exactly what you want? When things are falling into place, would you simply let them be, or would you change them? It's taking a chance to move away from things that click. It's taking a chance to change things that seem to work. I don't know if I'm going to walk away from these things that click. I don't know if I'm going to be swept away from things that can seem to be beyond my control some days, or if I will have the courage to stand up and take back the control of everything.

I'm not going to worry about that right now. I'm just going to enjoy the clicking sounds I keep hearing.