The Life That Late I Led

Last night when I called my partner, he was out at a party with many of our mutual friends. I was in bed, desperately trying to get some sleep before my alarm went off six hours later. It served to remind me of how different my life is now. Last night that reminder served to reduce me to tears because I didn't get the chance to go out and have fun, but upon more reflection as much as I do miss the parties, I am so thankful that I am where I am.

My life no longer focuses on me but on many wonderful people who I have been blessed to have as a part of my life story. Here, when someone asks you how you are, they actually care about the answer. I don't ignore moments in order to make it to a deadline because the moments are the point. In a place where I live at work, relationships much exceed acquaintances. My life is richer, deeper and fuller than it has ever been before. While I do miss the opportunities to get dressed up and go out to socialize, I realize that I may momentarily miss the life I used to lead, when I leave the life style I am now following I will grieve deeply for that loss. The life that late I led is nothing compared to the life that I am leading now.