Turning My Ring

For those of you who have known me for a long time, if you have seen me recently, you will have noticed that I've begun to wear a ring on a regular basis. This is something that hasn't occurred in my life in a long time. I don't wear jewellery on my hands because it means that I have to take it off in order to practice. That has been my practice for a long time until I got this ring. It's a claddagh, an Irish wedding ring that signifies a lot in my life from my heritage to my independence. Shockingly enough, this tiny piece of jewellery has become so important in my life that I can't really leave the house without it.

When I got the ring, I faced a choice about the direction of the ring which I have previously written about. Since making the choice, I have shown clearly that I am single. There is no dominant relationship in my life despite the fact that I have many in my life. Perhaps that is why I'm able to keep so many relationships alive in my life because I don't allow one to dominate. It may be something noble to think like that, but it doesn't feel like that. It feels like I'm missing something the longer I avoid a romantic relationship.

I guess what this really comes down to is that I want to turn my ring around. I want someone to give me a reason to. I want someone to show up in my life and make me smile when I feel sad. I want a cuddle partner when I watch movies late at night. I want someone to dress up for and make myself look good for, someone I long to see at the end of the day. I want someone to read with, someone to laugh with and someone to love. I want someone I can take to my cottage without hesitation. I want a love that doesn't match something I already have. I want something that makes my world stop and my head spin. And no matter how much I want to, nothing less than that is going to make me turn my ring around.