Heart Choices

A song from Aladdin just came on the radio and it's one of my favourite songs. It was the duet between the princess and Aladdin, A Whole New World. The line that struck me most was "Princess, when did you last let your heart decide?"

I can be the logical one at some points of my life. I realize there will be dissent over that statement, but when I make decisions I will make pro and con lists, look at things from every angle before deciding. I can usually talk myself out of doing things before I even get to the stage of doing things. Having said that, I have also banished logic from my bedroom. It is not allowed there.

Even when I'm not using logic (my own unqiue and special brand of it) I still don't make decisions with my heart. I use past precedent and what I have seen happen to other people. I won't usually throw myself into something unless I'm sure that it's safe. Or at least minimally damaging.

I heard once that falling in love is a great idea, so long as you take your head along with it. For the most part I do. It's an interesting experience to not have that. To just follow your heart especially when you don't know where it's going to end up. It's a hard chance to take, especially when there really are no guarantees. Sometimes that hurts more in the end, but it makes the fall really incredible.

I'm making a few choices now and I'm not sure how much I need to listen to my heart. I could use my head and then I know exactly where I will end up. Back at school, miserable and alone. My heart says something else entirely. If I listen only to my heart, then I will be at Daybreak, ecstatic and in relationship on so many levels. It might be easier to blend these two. The best compromise might be that I end up back at school, sort of happy and still together. Even though that's not necessarily what my heart is telling me to do (in fact, not really at all) I'm not sure if I am able yet to let my heart decide. I am working on it though.