Grief
I recently received an email from a friend who is studying for her MDiv out west and she mentioned someone who I hadn't thought of in awhile. It's the 5th annual Jay Cook Christmas Toy Drive. Jay was a friend of mine who killed himself when I was 14. It's been five years and I still don't feel like I've dealt with my grief from that any more than I had the day I got the call from Jenn telling me what had happened.
While I was crying over Jay a little bit more, I thought of all those who had left my life that I still haven't been able to let go of. Jenn Welsh died of leukemia when we were fifteen, and recently my uncle died, leaving seven children and four grandchildren. It all happened so fast that it doesn't seem like I had time to deal with it. And since then I siply haven't wanted to.
My question: How have I made it to 19 years of age and still not found a way to deal with grief?
posted by Martha at 7:06 AM
2 Comments:
The same way that i have made it to 20 without a way to deal with that kind of grief. I don't think i've ever gotten over the lost of my grandparents when i was younger and this fall when my grandma died, while i accepted it i still havn't delt with it.. its just buried for the time being.
We have grief that never fully gets dealth with. I count myself lucky that I have been exempted from most of these situations and the pain that most other people have encountered. But when I have to square with the grief that I carry, I do my best to try and remember it in a positive way.
Those people would not want you to spend the rest of your life being saddened by their deaths. They would want you to try and remember the good things about their lives, or at the very least, to learn from them.
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