Claddagh Choice

A few weeks ago I bought a claddagh, an Irish ring that shows a large part of my heritage. My sister had pointed out that a guy was supposed to buy this ring for me, but I lack the patience for a man to stick around in my life long enough for him to buy a ring for me. She also mentioned the direction of the ring means something. I didn't think much of it at the time becuase most of the people I know wouldn't notice something life that. It wasn't until another friend called me on it by asking who held my heart. After startled pause and a reply of "No one," he explained that wearing the ring with the crown facing up on your right hand means that you and your heart have been spoken for. Wearing the crown facing down on your right hand means that you are available.

I'm currently wearing the ring with the crown down, but I need to make a choice. Does not being in a relationship mean that I'm available? And does the fact that I'm not in a specfic relationship mean my heart isn't taken or that in some way I'm not spoken for?

I'm not in a romantic relationship right now and I have to admit I'm quite content with that situation. Just because I'm not in a romantic relationship that requires special celebration on Valentine's Day does not mean I'm not in plenty of loving and fulfilling relationships. So does availability mean the ability to commit to one specific person or the ability to enter into another relationship at all? With all the people and relationships I'm already so attached to, is there enough of my heart available to offer to a partner right now?

When I researched the ring briefly this morning, I found out that the crown should face up if there is even the consideration of a love. I'm not so sure about that. Love is not something to be too highly considered or else you might end up running away from it. It's a terrifying and yet exhilarating prospect at all times. I suppose I am considering relationships all the time. The answer is not usually one that leads to a relationship, but occasionally it is. Not all relationships are capable of claiming my heart either. It takes someone truly special to do that.

At least for the next while, I will leave the ring facing down as my heart has yet to be claimed by any mortal man. If only I could turn the crown sideways to show that on many levels I available, but on so many more I am not. As much as I would love the right relationship to come along, but the man who was created to claim my heart hasn't walked into my life yet.