Finding Home

I got to go home tonight. I actually got to go home twice. The first time I went back to work which has become a powerful place of home for me. I have a family there who don't love me just because they have to. They love me simply because they can. I know there will always be a place for me at the table and welcoming arms when I have had a bad day. The second time was when I walked through the door of my parents house, a place I don't live in for much of the year.

I have come to the realization over the past few years that there are many different definitions of home. For me, there are more than different definitions, there are many different homes. I realize that this has been hard for my parents since I was the first child to move away from home and also the first to find home in so many different places.

I'm not really sure what makes the definition of home for me. I know that in every home I have, there are many people who love me and want me to succeed. I also know that they are all places that I can go and feel safe.

I have just passed a major birthday in my life, but I know that I am going to find many places of home before I get much older. When I am done school, I will have to find a place that I want to call my home. I'm not sure where this is going to be. It may be in Halifax, St. John's, Vancouver, or Saskatoon. I really have no idea where my life is going to call me or how many times I will find a home.

I used to think that you have to create a home for yourself, but I've realized that home also finds you. I never intended to fracture my heart to cover so many areas, but it has happened because of the places that have found me and called me to remain. Wherever I go from now on, I know that I will both find and a create a home for myself. It doesn't seem to matter where I am, but I always feel the call of home. There is always someone who tugs at my heart and wants me to remain and leads me to the same desire.

The life of a student is not conducive for staying in one place. My feeling of home is one that is split and I have a feeling that it will remain so for much of my life. I'm not sure where my life will take me from this point, but there will always be a home for me.